Start Here Part 4: Just Watch

Start Here, part four. Welcome back, husband. Tonight is about your eyes. And your hands. Your eyes get to look. Your hands stay still. Headphones on. Lie back, or sit, hands resting open on your thighs. About fifteen minutes. Touch your ring. The ring stays on. Good. Breathe in. Hold. And out. Hands heavy. Arms heavy. Shoulders heavy. Everything quiet except my voice. Ten. Nine. Eight. Seven. Six. Five. Four. Three. Two. One. The ring stays on. Good husband. Now let your hands rest. Palms open. Heavy. So heavy you could not lift them if you wanted to. And you don't want to. Your hands are resting. Your hands are mine. Now imagine a room. A bedroom. Soft light. A chair in the corner, facing the bed. That's your chair. You sit in it. Hands on your thighs. Heavy. Still. And on the bed, there's me. Getting ready. Slowly. You can see all of it. You're allowed to look. You're not allowed to touch. Here is the word for that feeling. Watch. When I say Watch, your eyes open wide inside, and your hands go still. Watch. And something warm starts to build. Watch. The longer you watch, the warmer it gets. The warmer it gets, the stiller your hands stay. Watch. It feels strange, at first. Wanting something so much, and just sitting there. But that's the secret. The stillness makes it stronger. Watching makes it stronger. Not touching makes it stronger. Watch. Good husband. Let's test it. Up a little. One. Two. Three. Floating. Now hear it. Watch. Eyes wide inside. Hands still. Warm, building. And the ring stays on. Down. Someday there'll be someone else in that room. Not tonight. Tonight it's just me, and you in your chair. But you'll know your place when it happens. In the chair. Hands still. Eyes open. Watch. Let me make it deeper. Stay in your chair. I stand up from the bed. I walk towards you. Slowly. I stop right in front of you. Close enough that you smell my perfume. Your hands want to rise. They don't. They're heavy. They're mine. Watch. I lean down. My lips almost at your ear. And I whisper the word. Watch. And I walk back to the bed. And you watch me go. And the warmth climbs one step higher. Watch. Say it to yourself. I watch. I watch. I watch. My hands stay still. My hands stay still. My hands stay still. I watch, my hands stay still. I watch, my hands stay still. Good husband. The stiller your hands, the prouder I am. The prouder I am, the stiller your hands. In a moment I'll count you back up from one to five. With every number you feel lighter and clearer. And everything I gave you tonight stays exactly where I put it. Your hands will feel light again. But Watch will always find them still. One. Feeling comes back into your hands. Into the ring on your finger. Two. Your breath a little deeper. Three. Lighter. Clearer. Four. Stretch, if you want to. And five. Eyes open. Wide awake, and feeling good. You watched so well. Good husband. Next time, you hear a little tap, and you learn what it means. Part five.